Why I Cut My Hair Short
It wasn’t a Britney moment.
But I know my friends and family wonder if I snapped just a little. They are so used to the old me… the one with long hair. Only after my husband cut his, then I had mine whacked, one of my nephews said, “what’s with everybody getting a haircut?” Still, no one else has really asked me about the reason I did it. Of course, to be honest, no one cares. My son summed it all up by saying, “It looks better than I thought it would,” before turning back to a more meaningful conversation on the Instant Messenger.
Other feedback has been surprisingly positive, and one male friend was a little too enthusiastic, but what the hell? He hasn’t been laid in forever anyway. I didn’t think about how men would react… but I admit there was a little part of me didn’t want any attention for awhile. I needed a break from my usual old self. I needed a change. And as weird as I am about my looks, once I decided I wanted my hair cut, I didn’t care what anyone thought about it. Even those who said “don’t do it” were just adding fuel to the fire. But It took me three weeks of research and indecision before I committed myself and sat down in the chair. So it wasn’t something I took lightly.
When someone asked me if I did it because I’m getting older, I almost laughed. Then I almost cried. God no, I thought… I am almost 43… Looking or acting my age is not what I had in mind. But feeling different was. And while I feel like I look different, I am still me, just with sexy rock star hair.
I had romantic illusions going in… a fresh start, a new me… regret and pain all over the floor, cut away to reveal a happy, unburdened, rejuvenated woman. But in the end, it was just a hair cut. Not a bad look. One that fits me. Nothing I regret, after all, it will grow back.
But I notice that people don’t look at me the same. And I’ll admit that I expected it. I got my haircut on Saturday… and a job I was under-qualified for the following Monday. Maybe looking something more like a respectable adult helped. Although I am the same girl on the inside, I think it was easier to take me seriously during my interview.
Looks can be so so deceiving, can’t they?
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